The sociopath will always accuse YOU of what they are guilty of themself

The accuracy of this is astounding… something a person can not quite understand fully until they live it. I, myself, have lived it, to its entirety; I finally gained the courage threw my faith in God to walk away, after 9 long years.

Dating a Sociopath

Did you feel like you were going crazy? You were losing your mind? This is all part of the sociopath’s crazy making behaviour.

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The sociopath will always accuse you of doing the very thing that they are guilty of themselves. They do this to deflect the attention from them.

Examples of this are

  • Accusing you of cheating
  • Accusing you of being dishonest or lying
  • Accusing you of talking about them
  • Accusing you of doing whatever it is that they are guilty of themselves

The sociopath has a bizarre ability to be able to make YOU feel guilty and feel like you have defend yourself… for things that he has done.

You see the sociopath, is actually fairly intelligent. He knows that whilst you are busy defending yourself, and proving your innocence, you will be confused, and will forget about the real issue, the truth that you are close to uncovering…

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To My Children:

I forever promise you, I will always love you.
I will never leave you or abandon you.
I will never write you off or give you away.
I will never hurt you or make you feel less than.
I will never beraid you or bully you.
I will never feel hatrid or anger for you.
I will never make you feel disposible or replaceable.
I will never wish ill-thoughts or negativity for you.
I will never walk away from you, even if you beg me to.
I will never be happy for your misfortunes.
I will never go a day without thinking about you and smiling.
I will never go a day without thinking about you and worrying for you.
I will never go a day without praying for your happiness and well being.
I will never go a day without wishing I could go back in time and hold you as an infant just once more.
I will never look at you and not see my own heart outside of my body.
I will never make you choose between loving myself or another.
I will never not support whomever God created you to be.
I will never look at you and not see my very own gift from God.
I will never leave you my babies, even after death.
I will never go a day without loving you.

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“Fallin” Macklemore

I swear I’ve been here before, there’s a war in my heart,
Inside my chest is a thorn it’s been torn from the start,
The picture painted is warped, the hearts aching and scarred,
Music’s the band-aid I’m too afraid to take this shit off
Another drink at the bar but I’m not drunk enough,
Each shot burns less but the chest isn’t numbin up,
A voice keeps talkin’ in my head and I’m a fuck him up,
Fill the gun with lead and bust until the pump shuts him up,
Emos and rockers and rockers and emos another shot of some vodka to get myself up off of my ego,
There’s a door to my conscious, I can’t unlock it or see the peephole,
This angel held my baggage and then vanished like where did she go,
I was beside her but I was walking by myself though,
Break the silence with my cell phone it doesn’t help though,
I can’t believe this is happening, sinking into depression,
I’ve been here before and now I’m back again

I keep fallin, I keep fallin, I keep fallin, down the rain
Keeps pourin, keeps pourin, I don’t know if I can get up today
Keep fallin, I keep fallin, fallin, down the rain
Keeps pourin, keeps pourin, I don’t know if I can get up today

6am hung over leaving my booty call watch the sunrise
Head over I-5 headed North but there’s no sign of sunshine,
Empty brandy bottles spilled on the forgotten memories
Know I gotta let it go I’m just to selfish to set it free
Like forced release, two hours later I just got up and bounced
If she could only see me now head lost swallowed and drowned
The path is up but I followed it down
A man gone and hollowed out because you opened it up,
You can’t start over now
What’s to keep going for? validated by drunken whores bloody knuckles so numb and sore from punching these rusty doors
Freeway signs underpasses man stranded dusty mattress
This world is bipolar, beautiful for some for others the fuckin’ saddest…
So sick of lugging baggage
All I got is drugs and alcohol and these cuts of passion
Brain serenade razor blade punk madness
Pain is love plug the drain but the rain keeps crashing like

I keep fallin, I keep fallin, I keep fallin, down the rain
Keeps pourin, keeps pourin, I don’t know if I can get up today
Keep fallin, I keep fallin, fallin, down the rain
Keeps pourin, keeps pourin, I don’t know if I can get up today

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One day it will all turn around,

This negativity will soon drown.

One day the sun will shine,

That smile will be eventually be mine.

One day the tides will lower,

And the days will pass a little slower.

One day the pain will refrain,

And the glory will begin to rein.

One day will come soon.

Calm child for it is only noon.

One day happiness will come,

Until then, you must succumb.

But, one day it will all be yours,

And with that let your faith grow just a little more.

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Some days it’s easier to simply forget the day even existed than to always be reminded of your every single failure.

Some days are better to be lost than to remain a reason of why to give up.

Some days are nothing but pain and nothing will ever change that.

Some days can not be forgotten for they scar the soul leaving a forever trophy of defeat.

Some day will be that day but until then mask the odor of reality with sleep; what else could come close to that release.

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What is love?

love
noun
  1. an intense feeling of deep affection.
  2. a person or thing that one loves.
verb
  1. feel a deep romantic or sexual attachment to (someone).

In this desperate world of extreme technological advances we have become solely dependant on others perspective rather than speculating and forming our own stance. In the world of 2015 just about anything and everything is at the tips of your own fingers, ask anybody the most basic of questions and they will most likely respond with something along the lines of “google it.” But since when have we, as “intellectually advanced” human beings, evolved into spoon fed dependants?

When the world was created eons ago, the Lord gave us our own brain to make our own decisions. Eve deliberately deceived God when she was lured by a serpent, lead by the devil himself, to rebel against the one and only rule given to her by God; why is this? Why would one who has been given everything still act upon the desire for the one thing they have been asked to stay away from? Why is it human nature to rebel and question all acts of God in this world? Because God gave us that right, He gave us the ability to think for ourselves and make our own decisions, whether they are right or wrong. So as humans we have created this hierarchy controlled by the thoughts and actions of that very serpent. Did we not learn our lesson when we were first created? No we did not, because as humans, with our own thoughts, we feel like we belong on some form of pedestal because of this false pretense of sole independence given to us in exchange for our purity when Eve made her transaction many many years ago.  But in reality we do not deserve anything. But because of Gods immense love for his children, he does not intervene when we choose a more selfish route in life; instead he tries to comfort us when we fall to our own sword.

The point here is that as humans, we never learn from our own mistakes, we simply adapt to the circumstances throw at us in order to survive. Plainly surviving was never the intention of God when he created this planet, when he created this race. He wanted to give his children every opportunity and ability to succeed and make the absolute best of everything we have been blessed with on this planet. But once again as humans we have found our own way to complain and become disgruntled toward our own creator as a result of our OWN decisions; because we can not simply just be happy. The devil has embedded our race with discontentment which savagely destroys our inner most self.

God has given each and every one of us not only the ability, but the choice to love. God is love, without God we have nothing, we have selfishness, anger, hatred, etc. Given by the devil to counter-act all of Gods astounding amazingness. Without God we are NOTHING, we do not exist, we do not survive, we do not adapt, we do not live. Without love we have no point, we have no reason, we have no purpose; God is love in so many forms, from a cuddly kitten to an honorary momma bear, it’s all about YOUR perception.

Do you choose to follow Eve, indulging in yourself with no true fulfillment throughout this extremely short period lived on this toxic world; or are you a follower of our most high God, secreting love and acceptance through every pore in your body? The choice is yours, the choice will always be yours. Is this the time to change your direction, spreading love and joy in an excitement to serve the Lord? Maybe this is your wake up call….. Maybe someone near you needs your love and acceptance in order to continue their journey on this planet? God has given each and every one of us a never-ending well of love existing deep within our souls; maybe its time to start working on exposing your own well and spreading joy within your life.

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God is so good, he loves like everyone should.

God is so great, he elminates all hate.

God is so happy, he makes me all sappy.

God is so loving, he is forever trusting.

God is amazing, I can not stop praising.

God is hopeful, he makes my soul forever boastful.

God is everlasting, he will never leave you grasping.

God is perfect, he will never neglect.

God is forever, I will never be on his level.

God is fantastic, he makes my knees feel elastic.

God is love, the most pure from above.

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David the Devil

You lie threw your teeth.

Your trying to cause pain.

But you need to know that through this we will grow.

You can not break us.

You can not fake us.

But you will find soon, hopefully before noon.

You are piece of shit.

You seem to never quit.

But God is watching you, he will make your life very blue.

You hold your head high.

You try to touch my thigh.

But you will never get near me, you will soon fear me.

You say I’m a liar.

I should have wore a wire.

But my pants are not the ones on fire.

You will pay

For all that you say.

Keeping running your mouth, and shit will head south.

I know my place

I know your face.

You need to go away, without a single trace.

I am no body to you

But I am no ordinary Sue.

I will fight tooth and nail and God will always prevail.

I pray this eats you a live.

I pray you will no longer thrive.

God will take care of you, he will burn you from the inside.

I will no longer care

For this burden is not for me to bare.

This sin is all yours, I hope it makes you bleed from all your pores.

Your name is a curse.

You only make everything worse.

God warned me way back when, but I saw no sin.

You blame the world with all your folklore

You are the fault, you are the whore.

God will take care of you in a special way.

A man of God, you are just a fraud.

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Like a snake he slithers in the night,

hiding in the brush lurking, waiting to bite.

Trust me he says, I will calm the storm,

With other intentions to be forlorn.

He promises proof of devistating truth

Come to find out hes just a giant spoof.

His intentions are evil full of the devils entent.

He promises shelter for one to just vent.

He takes your words and spins them

Cutting your faith at the bottom of the stem.

Hurting you so deep, with no true compassion

He lurks around every corner in such a disturbing fashion.

I never saw this coming, I never once thought

I was just so nieve and trusting, I should have just fought.

My brain was clouded with false judgement

making decisions with no true sentiment.

I have been shamed, I have been hurt, I have been prompted to bascially be an escort.

I have faith, I have dignity, and my God will never fall short.

But still I trusted like a lost child tormented,

He promised solid proof, he promised a suppliment.

I had no interested, I never wanted anything like this,

But I prayed and believed that God answered with fists.

But God is not angry, God does not hate,

God is so good, only God knows our fate.

I have been so hurt, I have been so bruised.

I will never trust again, I will never again be confused.

I have seen the devils advoacate, I have met his side kick.

His words are sly, with evil intent lead with desire of a mans small dick.

You will not break me, I will never quit,

Because Im stronger than you, I will never just sit.

I want you to know that I see you now,

I want you to know that I can hear God’s “wow”.

Yours too will come, just you wait and see,

God will put you in your place, and the show will be free.

I will sit front row with a big smile on my face,

And watch your world crumble at my own pace.

You think you play a good game, you think you will win,

But I’m so much better than you, you are only sin.

I love my God, I love my family, I love my husband, this is so true,

But where will you be, when God comes for you.

God is love, peace and content

but when you hurt one of his he will never relent.

I am a child of God, I am one of his most loved.

I know this now, he has told me from above.

You were a test, like in the book of Job,

You are the devil in a hate bound robe.

But you will not stop me, you can not break me

I have an army behind me, soon your insides will quake because of me.

I pray you feel my pain, I pray God punishes you.

I pray he feels angered, I pray banishes you.

You say your a faithful man, a true man of God,

But like so many others you are just a fraud.

You lie, you sneak, you cheat, you seek,

but you do all of this because you are so fucking weak.

I warn you now, I will keep my ground

and if you dont stay away, you will never be found.

Enough about me, dont think I have forgotten,

you so deeply hurt my children, you brain must be rotten.

Little do you know what all I can truly do,

so let this right here but a giant warning to you.

Keep your distance from us, no matter the situation,

if you do not obide, this is my declaration.

I will fuck your world up, better than my most evil dreams,

I will ruin your life and expose your entire scheme.

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